Just sharing her to throw out my agony and pain here. Its been 2 weeks out of KTM valley. I haven't found any NA meetings or place where i can share? I am not asking for any suggestion or help. This is just give and take session here. Just a hope and courage session. Today, i know the power of sharing. Whenever i get change to throw out, i love to do that. Lately, even i have been visiting church to confess being hindu as well. Anyways all i am asking here is to listen. Thats all frenz

I met this gal in Nepal during my marketing session. She is working for this big foregin company as marketing executive. She was very impressed with me on just a call. She thought i was not Nepalese. She call me in her office on morning. I went there well dressed as deputy director of my company. That is what my business card reads. I told her my name is KC. She thought i was kasey. Well she was shocked to see me as she was expecting some other citizen. We have a long conversation for hours. She loved the products and quality, i was providing. I offer her good price then what she was getting. You know me, i start to flirt with her. I was able to get her mobile no. I told her " do u like coffee?" , she smiled and said Yes, las kush in thamel has nice brewed coffee. I told her i prefer nice roasted beans, I dont like filter coffee. She told me they have best coffee in town. I looked at her and smiled then asked her if it is possible to go for coffee after work. She told me, if i am free laterz work. I told her that i will call her after lunch.
well blah blah blah, aba mero guff ta gai halcha ne....

now we start to date each other and it been going since then. She is from birjung and was married. She dont have any kids. She lives alone in flat with her sister. I do spend lot of time with her. She is newar and well u know me...........i am kc. I love her but she dont have any plan to get married in future so far. She says she is not mentally ready. She wants to stay with me as now. Well, lets say we are almost like husband wife. We meet each other often. We go to lunch together as our office is15 min away by walking distance. I spend lot of time in her house. I stay there and we even has just changed decor in her flat from curtain to carpet. We both have put our dreams and desire there. I spend every saturday and sunday with her.
I dont mind to stay like that forever with her. In other hand my family is forcing me to get married and whenever i ask her. She says go ahead but she will still be my first wife. The gal i will marry will be my second wife. She says, she wont get hurt. Whenever i face this reality, it is painful. I have told my family about her, they say it is not ok, If i want i can go ahead. They are just doing it for my shake coz they are afraid that i might be alcoholic again. She has also bigger role to change my alcoholic to recovering today.

Just cant understand my life .....always get in strange situtation....never had a normal as other have. I am responsible for it as well.

thanks for listening

uhi recovering addict
moneyminded

yup u can just date for 4 yrs till you finsh your undergrad..may be throw in 6 more months of bonus..till you find a job...and then find someone else to get married wth...wish i was that smart..hehe

He he he MM bro :)

Jai hoss Prabhu jai hoss. Am lovin' it.

Best wishes...
IndisGuise:)

lonely
u should stay single. never marry haii. gives u all the freedom in the world, if you know what i mean.
what say u?

oops
wrong thread. sorry.

Mansion, the thing u said "guys r more commmitted towards a relationship than a girl" made me roll with laughter.
guys r aggressive in the beginning of the relationship,or shud i say when they're initiating the relationship.when they get the girl's atttention and love, they start searching for a new bird.
let me also not make this sort of generalisation.
i'll say "good guys seen to b in the hand of wrong girls and vice versa".

Gorkhalikanchhi, if we don't marry the one we love then what r we supposed to do?leave him and marry someone else? why love him in the first place if we were to leave him?

lonely. keti ji...yup, you should just date me loz.

mansion, date you to be left alone after you graduate after 4 yrs?
no way.

u dont have to worry about that, i already graduated,2 yrs back.

graduated 2 yrs back and still single?u want me to believe that?
i don't wanna burn down someone else's house to build my own.said that already.

yesssssssss

Gurlllllllu, How you? Long tyaam...

MM biradar killin' me softly once again with his ever changin' love story... eh!!! Phew, ishq di galli bich no entry? You makin' me take a "chalaang" in sisnu ko jhaang or rather hang myself on a soft branch of a small tree. eh... ke ke ke ke!!! Good bless you. Try rum... eh... Ghum ka saathi rum. eh....

La where am I? 15 more to go? eh.

I was avoiding this thread even though was started by me. I wasn't thinking to response on this either. Now, it is 3.26 AM HK time. I just brewed by green chinese tea woke up after 4 hours of sleep. I was passing through it reading each careful response.
I certainly realised that i have pulled connection strings of lot a gals and guys here. I use to think i am different than others. Thanks for everyone crisis that they have been through and still passing by. I know as i say" sabai galti mero ho, aba je garchu maile nai garchu". I will certainly not burn my house nor her heart. I am not going to kill myself either coz i am survived sperms out of the millions who made it till my mum ovary. I will certainly go with the flow of time being karmaYogi. I happen to love this word and cant get enough of it. I have admit of being karmayogi but has not accepted yet. There is certainly a distance between amdittance and acceptance.
Reading through lot of comments, I may have activate my denial mechanism. I certainly is aware of that fact. Let me get into the relationship chapter.
What kind of relation is MM looking for?
trust, sucessful, honesty,responsiblity, understanind, sharing, guidance, respect, supprot, love and affection, discipline, independency, self space, listening and proper communication.
well, i am sure we all have heard the story" neauri mari paachuto' 'नेउरी मारी पाछुतो' so where there is decision. There must either be reacion or action. Shouldnot i be taking reaction( wait,think and act) rather than jumping into action. That action will take me just around the clock as visicous circle. This is still why i go through same problem in all my realtionship. I need to break this visicous circle facing the impact being Karmagyogi.
So lonely gal pls help me with my " all W factors, which, why, when, who , what?" aba being in evalution i should be stoped on my my assumption, assmue
assume= ass+U+Me
It is all created in your brain, it is non other than imagination brain child.Actually who is being ass here its u and me.
anyways, mero yeti lamo typing garne patience and tolerance build up bhaye cha...so keep working on it.

ani kalanki bro aba ke garne maanche ho, तिम्रो तस्वीर ले चित्त बुजौदा ma survive hunu bhayena...killing me softly is always my problem, actually it is problem for all. ek kai choti ta marne himat aaudaina baru rakshi khayera drugs khayera jindagi dekhi deeka bhayera marchu bhanchan....so bro aba marne sarne haina...smile and accept the reality..aba herdai jau next 60 yrs ma yo MM le ke garcha..timi haru herdai jau

uhi moneyminded
recovering addict
(wanna change the world, change yourself)

Please keep it up guys i am loving it

i love reading $$ minded's posts. bro, timro life tya kya action-packed cha....moj garnu...ra je garepani mero subhakamana cha..

He he he he MM bro. Harek kadam ma mero subhakamana cha hai bro. :)

"aba herdai jau next 60 yrs ma yo MM le ke garcha..timi haru herdai jau"

Yo 60 "yrs" typo ho? Hoina bhane ta, Nepali umer male ko 58 cha re average. Aba ko 60 bhanechi ta Sajha ko 99% sabai siltimur khaisakcha bro.Tara je bhaye ni keep it comin. It's a pleasure to read. And of course good luck for your endeavours.

Aja bihana dekhi yrath lagi rako bela alik ramailo bho. He he!

IndisGuise:)

So Moneyminded pal,
what did you decide?

MM bro,
I had a good laugh after reading your yet another unique love story. Don't mind me hai, but I don't understand how you manage to fall in love with new person each month? Bro, dherai hindi movies hernu bhayena, tyo ta sab UTOPIA maatra ho, real life is something really different yaar. I still remember the single mother you fell in love with sometime back. Is she still in the picture? ;).


Lonely...

Mr.lonely certainly has fall in love only once. Rest started as fun but later problem of facing the consicounes. It is so called not having Gula( balls) to face reality thats why i am seeking an excuse? Second phase of denial.

Lonely gal: I am going to dump her but on a proper way. Again problem with my activated denial mechanism which is not ready to accept it. Just trying to give myself excuse by saying dump her in proper way...dumping is dumping...when u plant mango u get mango' Isn't it?

Indi bro: ke garne life is random pattern of happiness and sorrow bhaneko jastai....keep on swinging on emotional pendulum. Khusi bhaye ne rakshi khana maan laagne, dukha bhaye ne rakshi chaine bhaneko jasto. Tehi ho

zalim singh: life is not zalim,afnai thoughts is zalim...aba we are slave of our senses ke garne.

Nice guy: wish i was mac donald serving same menu since 19.. so i am loving it

Girl inter: welcome back hopefully not interupted anymore

aba tehi ho final conclusion, accept the reality

MM birader le mero kura mind garya jasto laagyo ni. Bro, yo lopp sopp bhanyaa kitaab ra movies ma maatra thik chha k. real life ma there are so many things to enjoy ni. kina dukhi hune bekaarma tension liyera haina? It's not that i don't respect others feeling hai feri. if someone is in love and yet is happy then that is great. yesma balls ko kura nai chhaina ni. personal choice maatra ho haina?

Anyways, good luck on your pursuit for love.

Lonely...

im lonely lonely lonely.....im lonely lonely in my life
god help me help me help me
god help me help me to survive......